izkisa

The cold air is like razor blades grazing my skin I walk, and walk, and walk, but this is a fight I can't win Whatever I do, you never get out of my head Just thinking of you makes me feel dead Everything I hear reminds me of us Every single song about love, every song about lust You were my angel, so now who will save me? The one who stood beside you was all I ever wanted to be The arms that held me, warm and tight The arms in which I fit just right The hands of a musician, clenched when you want to look tough The hands that taught me love feels good rough The breath that takes my own away The breath, quick and hot, that says yo

I'm searching the sky, but there are no stars Not even the moon shines anymore All I want is a glimmer of hope That I won't always feel so alone It's getting dark again- the sun is going down I know there is nothing out there But I can't help checking anyways The disappointment is something I never get used to The weather seems to never be as good as promised I've been let down yet again The heavens are avoiding me; they stopped answering my calls I've learned not to believe anyone who tells me forever

What's left to breath for? Nothing is ever quite right here Life will always feel off,   I'll always feel the tugging in my brain Hinting to me that everything is wrong. And there's no love left, Only your broken soul Dragging me down with you. What made life beautiful, Is now absent from my life. I can feel the hole in my heart, In the spot where I used to accept myself. What's left to live for? I might as well be left-for-dead, Even emotion abandons me Anytime I feel happy, it's taken away By the people who are supposed to love me. Incapable of doing anything right, I fuck up so much I forget what it's like not

It's the same old thing, but not the same old you Your eyes are dull, your temper worse I'm only clinging to the past, but I'm losing my grip The hold I have on you and reality both seem to be slipping You were my whole world, I have nothing left to stand on I have to let you go You're a highly potent drug, and I have to give you up Gone is the man who brought a genuine smile to my face Gone is the one who taught me true love It's painful, but I have to let you go You promised to never leave me You swore you wanted "to be there for me always Through tears and torment, Rainbows and smiles" But now you never are I'm done crying o

I'm feeling so betrayed My thoughts are all scattered and frayed People always let me down, now my mind is too I can't control it, I don't know what is going on Is this rock bottom, am I going insane? There's a mutiny in my brain Shaking,  I don't know what I'm feeling Anger, sadness, joy, my emotions hit the ceiling Gooey and sticky, plastered to the walls of my skull Clouding judgment; an end to logical anything Is this rock bottom, is this what it's like to go insane? There's a mutiny in my brain My thoughts are going at mach five  but I can't move Breath is quick and shallow, acid surely eating through my stomach My eyes are

Starring into the sky, looking for the answers Why am I here? I keep screaming, begging for the answers I need to get me through the day Why don't I just go? There's no reply of course, because I am so alone Why do I put up with this? Except now it's me and him, and we're alone together Where am I even at? I search his face for my answers Is it possible to love me? All I get is this blank stare, I think he might be dead to me What is the point is staying? Maybe I can breathe in his thoughts, I'm sure he knows it all When am I going to know? No one has these answers for me, not even the one I thought was my angel How am I gonna

Your heart beats faster and faster, and baby it's music to my ears I'll do anything just for a reaction The blood flows downward from your brain, and you don't see my tears Hold me tighter, that's all I need Feeling your warm body next to mine, hearing your voice That's the stuff that makes life bearable Dreaming about you constantly, like I don't even have a choice The praise, the compliments and ego-stroking Tell me I'm beautiful some more I don't believe you, but god it's just so good to hear It's been forever since I was warm down to my core Because I'm just so cold, lifeless You make me feel like I'm doing more than existing

Fear, clenching and unclenching my stomach So many reasons why it's so painful Like how do I say this to you My heart got lost in the mail A couple years ago I'm sorry but it can't make its way to you I like you a lot, really I do But I just can't give it all to you Because I'm a couple pieces short of complete I don't really remember what it was like when I lost it Before than I hadn't even realized I had it Life, now and before, it's such a blurry haze I'm so sorry, but my heart got lost in the mail I was trying to send it to somebody, and that boy wasn't you I'm not sure if he got it or not, I didn't get a reply So while I c

Every day, I'm reminded why I spend so much time hating my life They can't make up their minds, leave or stay Stay with me, don't give up on living, please I'm begging Every day, off and on, I'm torn apart, ripped to shreds The pieces of me held together only because of my beautiful angels, my beautiful, crying angels I can't take it, every day I'm hit by an earthquake Dying again and again, it's no way to live Your misery laces the pills you gave me so that I wouldn't feel Contradiction after contradiction, I hate the lies The only reason I stay, it's those lovely angels, All my lovely angels, please know that I'm fine though,